| CXCIII |
I swear with all my cosmic power,
I AM not sleeping with my “husband” any longer. Why? Well, since I’ve elevated
my consciousness and realized that I AM God, I also realized that he will not
have such an awakening during this particular journey. Perhaps what energy he
gets from me will manifest in a heightened existence for his reincarnated
return. As for where we are now, in this place in which we perceive as time,
his touch and kiss give me the sense of perverted violation. I feel as if
giving him my temple for pleasure, completely refusing the option of
procreation, would be the quickest means of tainting the pure energy I’ve spent
the last eighteen months creating and manipulating. As a Scorpio, sex magick is
the most powerful and natural for me. After all, we are the most powerful of
the entire zodiac. So non-natives can only imagine how sensitive a
self-realized and actualized God might feel laying with someone who is
intentionally hateful, condescending, selfish and vehemently opposed to
scientific illumination. As a result, the Universe has forced me to find my
equal, becauscha sexual chemical marriage is never a matter to be taken lightly. I have
resolved for the first time in my life to remain celibate until I encounter my
complimentary practitioner of the magickal arts. Now, if my resolution comes
off as pretentious and/or unwarranted, attempt to view it on the basis of
Universal Law.
Deepak Chopra teaches that our
bodies are a physical manifestation of our conscience’s sentiment. Everything,
from how we look to how we feel, has a metaphysical source. Every action we
take has an equal and opposite physical and metaphysical reaction. It is all a direct
depiction of what we are manifesting. The same is especially true when we feel
and act upon sexual excitement. Our bodies yearn to connect and create. As if
that were not enough, being the dynamically spiritual vessels that we are, we
attract, carry and travel with entities that most can not see. The nature of
these entities and their direct affect on our lives is contingent upon our
frequency or our emotions, and our train of thought. Needless to say, they are very
much present when any sexual ritual, casual or formal, takes place. These
entities not only mate with and through the vessels, they mate with one
another. I speak from experience. During masturbation, when I intentionally channel
particular hypersexual energies that leave me with an altered persona, my chakras
wide open and my very being plunged in ecstasy, I find myself subject to
scratches. Now, regardless of how enticing that may or may not sound, knowing
my predicament, I should be doing a spiritual cleansing or spiritual bath
before and perhaps even after I engage in sexual rituals, solitary or accompanied.
But because I AM experienced in working with spirit and AM particularly
intrigued in exploring the happenings, I have not begun conjuring or testing a
remedy. Though, I will be sure to do so in the near future, as I hope to find
the choice counterpart and will be sure to aid in their protection, if they so
wish. When I complete the task, I will be sure to update the blog. Perhaps, I will
discuss how the channeling is accomplished, but all to come in a later
publication. I digress.
As a responsible occultist who
has had her fair share of sexual liberation, understanding these esoteric
truths gives me reasonable doubt when considering partnered sex of any nature. Any
one looking to manage the energy in their space must first ask: Who is this
person? What energy could their day to day activities, that remain mysterious
during our casual encounters, bring to my body or to my mind? What emotional
turmoil are they privately suffering with that could disrupt my hard-earned
balance? Orgasm aside, how is their very presence, their conversation and even
their thoughts about me affecting me? Yes, how someone views you and especially
how they speak of you casts a spell on you as well. You can have the most intrinsically
existential sex ever with the perfect noncommittal arrangement, part ways and how
that person speaks of you will work on you much longer than will the orgasm they gave you.
If this person does not respect your being and your body, then the energy that
seeps from them can only be harmful. It is best for your long term happiness to
highly scrutinize to whom you reveal your glory and bestow your blessing. Now, Men
may feel that this doesn’t apply to them due to them not having a vagina. Oh, that’s only a chick thing. Well, due
to you being void of a physical opening, you in turn struggle to open
metaphysically. Those of a male manifestation who have had the benefit of opening
to the Universe and tuning into their hidden feminine frequency and therefore have
aggressively invested in their own power and blessings, you relate to the tenet
and we can move forward.
Have you ever witnessed a
socially adept individual whose sexual and material lifestyle spurs envy,
eventually become depressed and even suicidal? Yet, the lone wolf “weirdo” who
takes pleasures in the abstract, the spiritual, tends to hold a slice of
ethereal bliss that the previous could never hope to obtain, while also being
better lovers. Be not animal; refine thy
rapture
I write this exposition from a
place of pain. I have the worst memories of literally not being able to think
straight because of what I allowed to take place on and inside of me from men
who wished me misery. Negative energy, demons, jins, devils, all plant
seeds of or give birth to emotional instability and disease. Nights of sitting
alone in the middle of the living room floor screaming in hysteria still haunt
me from the control I surrendered to the ill willed. Countless times of making
countless phone calls ignoring the signs of my “relationships” energetic imbalance
still embarrass me. Mind you, the sex was horrible most of the time, either too
short and/or too quick and definitely uncreative. But I opened my
heart and my mind to being with someone who never had any intention of seeing
me happy with him or her. Instead, I was a receptacle for their low self-esteem.
But when I found my ancestors and their presence made physical manifestation in
my life, I was given the opportunity to elevate my consciousness and wake up to
my state and to that of those the world over. As a freed woman, I chose to
cherish what I have consciously crafted as my body and embrace the destiny I
chose by being born on November 21st, The Cusp of Revolution.
As so above, so below,
The Huntress
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